Just Another Louis

真的很痛

2011-12-26T23:44:00.003+08:00

他们，果然在一起了。

怎么我的心可以如此疼痛？

我开了口，以后都不想见面。

你让我如此心痛，我以后都不想看到你了！

我吃醋

2011-12-08T21:18:00.002+08:00

有人说，喜欢一个人就常常吃醋

我也是人，我也会为了一件小事吃醋的

每一次，和你在一起的时候你都会拿着手机不放

记得有一次，你电话不见了，你很紧张

我不懂你电话的里的人是谁

不管那个人是男的女的

我就是很不喜欢你和我在一起的时候一直按电话

我知道，我不是你的谁

也许是我害怕会失去你吧

放心，如果你真的找到一个你很喜欢，也可以给你开心的人

我会祝福你

这个醋，我已经吃了很久

你可以告诉我那个人是谁吗？

她要的

2011-11-20T23:08:00.005+08:00

三天没找她了

今天，她主动来找我，信息里她说她想跟我回去像以前那样吵吵闹闹的日子

但是我们谁都没有时光机器，我们还能像以前那样吗？

以前，可以对自己信心满满地对她说她是绝缘体

但是现在我只能说我有一点点喜欢她了

她说她想要的只是单纯的友情，我心想要的却是她给的爱情

我只是想争取自己觉得重要的人而已

你给我太多的快乐，我不想我们只能维持在朋友

可以给我一次机会吗？

给我当一次情人知己

对不起

2011-11-17T18:49:00.002+08:00

一句对不起已经弥补不了什么了

其实，那个拥抱是真的

是我把你吓着，是我一时冲动，对不起

我想告诉你，之前对你绝对是没有意思的，但日子久了自己有点也喜欢你了

我追另一个女孩那时候才发现原来喜欢的不是她，是你

或许你之前都是一直把我当成好朋友，而我也是一样，因为那时候对你没有feel

很奇怪，你也不是我喜欢那类型的女孩，但偏偏就喜欢有你的存在

也许真的日子久了，已经习惯了

现在的我想回到我们以前粘在一起的日子，但事实是真的回不了

他追你，如果你也会接受了，我没话好说

但只要一天那个feel还在，我都会等，等到那feel不见了，然后我们就这样了

如果你偶尔也会想起我，我真的很希望你会来找我

开心的时候，可以跟我一起分享

不开心的时候，借你耳朵听你诉苦

我真的希望你能看见我写的每一个字

也想对你说我已经有点开始喜欢你了

但现在的我已经不会有那个机会吧

就这样吧，以后都不会再烦你了

我曾经那么要好的朋友

如果你活得开心我会祝福你，不然你就给我乖乖像以前一样

我喜欢你

2011-11-03T23:59:00.005+08:00

我喜欢你笑得像傻婆一样

我喜欢你粗鲁又笨拙动作

我喜欢你开我玩笑的时候

我喜欢你一副自以为是的气派

我喜欢你给我酸了打我的时候

我喜欢你连着讲“不要”三次也可以讲得那么可爱

我喜欢你在我面前假装坚强却忍不住哭了出来

我喜欢你教会我不要再追那个不可能的人

我喜欢你因为我不懂为什么会吃你的醋

我喜欢你因为我不懂何时何地自己也开始喜欢你

我喜欢你明明不是我心目中喜欢那样的女生，可是我就是喜欢你

我真的真的好喜欢，好喜欢你

还是放弃了

2011-10-30T10:11:00.003+08:00

我还是放弃了。

惊喜，用心，全部都没有用。

直觉告诉我，她不会喜欢我。

妙妍，你说得对，可能她是孤单是才会找我。

明明心就不痛，怎么会感觉那么累？

我本来都是一个人，现在还是一个人，没失去什么所以也没有什么可以难过。

那个女孩

2011-10-20T21:29:00.001+08:00

你！

星期一给我准备迎接我的惊喜吧！

也希望那个时候的你会感动。

<3

I'm Not Emo

2011-07-10T02:25:00.003+08:00

A year already... this month of last year.

Everything just happened very fast...

Is she still keeping the present from me?

Will she still remember me?

Did she loves me at the beginning? A little bit? No?

Heartbroken, I started smoking.

She never stops me, so I continue.

Okay, everything gone and passed.

She is nothing but just a person walk pass my life.

I will look forward to continue my life but I trust no more love.

Someone please touch my heart?

Good night!

Heart In Million Pieces

2011-04-26T02:56:00.002+08:00

有些后悔为何当初会喜欢你

2011-04-21T18:58:00.006+08:00

我想每晚对你说“ 晚安晚安晚安”

我想每个早晨对你说“起床起床起床”

FB分组中为你单独设置组叫做”L”

这个组只有你就有你

你校内的状态签名只要一换

我立刻胡思乱想揣测不安

一直在等你

等你电话、等你短讯、等你的只言片语

你却忘记了我

我想我真的可以对你无条件付出

你却不稀罕对你来说这只是负担~

那么那么舍不得

你却那么那么随意洒脱不在乎

说要放下你

却总是忍不住又拿回来想念

真的好想你快乐

所以宁愿自己不快乐

好想大声告诉你

我真的好后悔喜欢上你

因为我发现真的是真的喜欢你

但是你不喜欢我这就是事实

那个骄傲的我去哪里

允许自己偷偷哭一场

以后再也不会期待

不会看你在不在线了

不会看你的空间了

不会期待你的短讯和电话了

不会翻阅你的短讯你的照片你的日记

不会在饿了的时候发信息告诉你按时吃饭，冷了想你会不会冷，雪天告诉你慢些开车

不会把你的来电调成唯一的铃音放在身边，不时的看有没信号不好或者自动关机

不会在听歌的时候偶尔被某句歌词击中脑中出现短暂的空白

不会再关心你跟他你们之间的任何一点一滴

不会因为喜欢你而希望你跟他不好又因为想让你幸福而矛盾的希望你跟他甜蜜

不会再这样患得患失

有那么一个人

真的让我受伤了

我那么那么喜欢你

我一点也不遗憾

值不值得都不要紧

重要的是

记得曾经有那么一个人偷偷喜欢过你

放弃你！因为你的冷淡你的不在意！

我谢谢你的不在意，让我看到了自己

Barroom & Club9

2011-03-27T15:09:00.027+08:00

This amoi, she called Suzanne.

Same lecture class with her, yet got no chance to get to know with her, but then I get to know her in club! :D

First impression for me, she is cute, and look alike with Hsiao Ying.

Suzanne, date again next time! Hah!

Then I introduce Suzanne to Wai Sing, yeah!

And this one, Carmen. I think I same class with her last semester, for taking the moral and pengajian malaysia subjects. Quite a gorgeous girl too.

Next, she is Evonne. I think I saw her before, but never get to know her until last night.

Noris! The girl from Gin Mah, Kah Hoe and Choon Khean's gang, whom also only know my nickname, and don't know my real name. Gosh, should I happy? By the way, she is quite a good dancer! Noris, next time we go again, but don't bully me ya. :p

Belle~ Haha, quite a cute girl too, know for more than a year already I guess.

Come on, I'm acting funny! LMAO!

See, Rajiv so rude! Haha, the girl on the left is Suzanne and the girl on the right is Elaine, whom also is my classmate for a subject in this semester.

And the last photo, I took photo with 3 girls, Belle, Evonne, and Carmen.

I really had a crazy night, never be such crazy! Nice to meet you all, girls and guys! :)

p/s: Sorry guys, I didn't take any photos with you guys. I apologize.

朋友

2011-03-17T23:30:00.003+08:00

为何这篇会叫【朋友】？

因为是写给我每位的朋友。

我，吴振辉，对你来说真的有那么令人讨厌吗？

我有做过什么伤天害理，又或者是什么严重的错事吗？

我本性就是像个小孩，如果你觉得不能和我做朋友，为什么又要交我这个朋友？干脆当作不认识就好了。

如果我碰一下你，你也觉得我是打你，那我没什么好说，就只能确实验证你是个【豆腐人】。

还有，我对每个朋友都真心相待，为何你要讲得如此的绝？

一笔勾销？这算什么意思？

如果你觉得我真的不值得你交我这个朋友，没关系，也许我们注定友情的缘分就到此为止。

还有，如果你也觉得我是一个烦人，那你要对我说清楚，你不说，我是不会知道的，懂了吗？

我烦，是因为我当你们是我的朋友，在乎你们，怕你们会把我忘了。

如果我们是陌生人，我连一句话也不会对你说。

朋友啊，朋友。。。

我真的搞不清楚你们在想些什么。

其实我的生活真的很简单，为何你们却那么复杂？

一点点小事情，却对别人说到如此严重？

我真的很搞不懂，我们是兄弟吗？是？不是？算了。。。

你有你的想法，我有我的。

朋友，我拿了我的真心，却不见得你也拿出你的真心，我看得见的，并不是真正所谓的【朋友】。

或许，我也应该懂得去带面具做人，这样才不会吃亏。

社会很单纯，复杂的是人。

这一次，我终于领悟到什么叫【朋友】，我绝不会再去相信它了。

路易斯在此发誓！

20岁生日

2011-03-02T16:16:00.002+08:00

今天，我的生日，我20岁了！

昨天，原本是以为就去和老兄们玩电脑，不让自己倒数自己的生日，可能是怕会孤单一个人过。

然后我的同屋说，屋主要加租金，那我就快快回家了。

回到家，原来我的同屋是给我一个惊喜！

突然全部灯都关上。。。我吓傻了。。。【流汗不止】

还是第一次在金宝有人这样帮我庆祝呢！哈哈

难得今天是我生日，希望今晚有个人陪我聊聊天，谈谈心事。

不聊天，其实去看看湖也不错，只要有个人陪陪我就行了。

才发现，人生，真的没有多少时间，没多少个十年。

我就这样，20岁了。

我已经单身19年了。。。很惊喜的，今天变成了20年。

哈哈，好啦，我最后一个愿望不是要有个女朋友，不过很多人都这样以为。

其实，我的愿望是。。。希望今年凡是顺利就好了。

好啦，就写到这里，下次再多说一点。

路易斯杰尔·笔

进入人生中的第二个阶段

2011-02-27T08:43:00.003+08:00

你知道何谓人生的第二个阶段？

就是当你19岁，即将要进入20岁的那一天。

20岁了，很多事都不能再像以前了。

不能再孩子气，不能再幼稚，不能再依靠别人。。。

看来我得真正地学习【稳重】。

要学会自己分配时间，做人做事有分寸和认真，懂得寻找自己要走的路。

听朋友说，这个阶段，可能会是改变我们一生的时期。

如果错过了，以后要改变也就难了。

身，定下来；心，静下来。

专注于自己该做的事情——学业。

很快地，我也将要进入这第二个阶段。

时间过得真快呀，回想到童年，真得觉得自己什么也做不了，或许什么也没做。

只要专心，有恒心，我相信没什么事是做不了。

希望三十岁能看见自己有个属于自己的成就。

加油！

钱不够用

2011-02-11T23:37:00.004+08:00

过年了，那了很多红包，大概六百块。。。

现在还剩五百块。。。

好烦啊！

很多东西要买！

有钱又烦要买哪一样先，因为不够买完全部要买的东西。

没钱又烦，因为什么都买不到！

现在到底是怎么样？！

手表，两三百块；新鞋，也是两三百块；external harddisk，两百多；还有新衣！

PTPTN又刚申请，没有这么快拿到钱。

说真的，PTPTN钱到手，可能我会拿去买股票投资了。

希望可以赚到一些钱啦。

可是我又不是很会股票那些东西，得慢慢学。

这个什么世界，什么都钱钱钱。

没钱，连女生都不会望你一眼。

唉。。。烦啊！

救命！

:(

缺钱用的人笔下，
路易斯。

某人，我喜欢你，但那也只是曾经。谢谢你的不在乎，让我学会了收回苦苦等待的心…

2011-01-20T02:18:00.002+08:00

你已经好久没有主动打电话给我，甚至没有主动发过一条短信，我们，就这样了吧。就这样，不再爱你了.

不再，为你心动了

你会不会，会不会像我想你一样想我呢……

距离拉长了思念，却阻隔了见面；让你离我好远好远。眼看着身边的人一个一个都有了轰轰烈烈，我想，是该放下你了，回忆，仅仅是用来回忆。

不要说我不甘寂寞，因为我已经寂寞了好久，不要说我用情不专，因为你从来不属于我，也不要说我轻言放弃，你甚至，连一个微小的回应都不曾给我.那是因为爱，因为委屈，因为心痛……

不再留着你的短信不舍得删掉了

不再一遍一遍的回看我们的聊天记录了

不再眼巴巴的盯着手机期望你的电话了

不再上一整晚的Facebook等你现身了

不再到处跟别人打听你的消息了

不再向好友倾诉自己的心酸了，因为倾诉过一次，已经代表，我决定放下你了

你拨动了我的心弦，却不曾为我驻足，当我以为你还在的时候，你已没有踪影，当你回头找寻我的时候，我已开始寻找自己的天空，亲爱的，我把最美好最美好的年华留给了你，我，于你无愧。亲爱的，我的青春有限，承担不起一生一世的等待。亲爱的，让我骄傲一次，这次，是我不要你了。

我爱你的时候是真的爱你，我不爱你的时候是真的不爱你了

请不要怀疑，曾经，我愿意不顾一切的等你，愿意随时随地陪你，愿意在你身后默默的看你，为你的快乐而快乐，为你的悲伤而悲伤，尽管，那些情绪，与我无关啊……

等待不苦，苦的是，没有希望的等待……

我爱你，但，那只是曾经。

你，怎么又哭了？

2011-01-02T23:43:00.005+08:00

1：

你单身，我等你。
你说不想恋爱，我等你。
你突然有了新的开始，我等你。
你结束了你的爱需要疗伤，我陪你，我等你。
我以为终有一天你会发现你身边的我，终有一天会回头。
却从未想过，最终等来的却还是，一句，对不起，你很好，可是....
我真想说一句，去你妈的对不起！

2：

我承认。
我不介意迁就你。
我可以一直抬头仰望你。
只是，你真的，从来都不看我吗？
我在这里啊，我在这里啊！你听见了吗？
我真想问一句，你究竟是聋了还是瞎了啊？为什么就那么无动于衷呢?

3:

有时候会想。
我究竟喜欢你什么。
我究竟在等你什么？
也许得不到的才真的是最好的。
又或者，我只是没有遇见，比你更好的。

4：

是不是真的要到，等我忘记了你。
是不是真的要到，等我放弃了你。
是不是真的要到，等我离开了你。
你才能真正地知道，我于你而言，也是那么重要。

5：

你不知道某些时刻，我有多么难过。
你不知道，没有回应的等待，真的让人很累。
你不知道，我是鼓起了多大的勇气，才敢念念不忘。
又或者，你不是不知道，只是假装不知道。
你是那么自私。我是那么傻逼。

6：

一次次反复。
哭累了，沉默了。
想放弃了，冷淡了。
可是时间一过，却又还是想念了。
放不下，忘不掉，戒不了，走不开。

7：

身边的人都会心疼。
周围的人都会劝解。
大概也就只要你了吧。
仍旧那么无动于衷。
大概也就只有我了吧。
仍旧那么情有独钟。
该说什么好呢？
一个愿打一个愿挨吗？

8：

一直在等一个人
一直在等一个回头
一直在等一份笑容
终于等到，我自己都没了笑容
也够了吧，我真的累了。
可是为什么，我向左走，向右走，还是走不出爱你的圆。

9：

我并不奢求在你那里找到幸福
也不敢想你会有什么付出
只是想，既然做了决定我就义无反顾
可笑的是，你却连一个让我义无反顾的机会都不给我。

10：

你突然问我，什么时候会抽烟了。
我笑笑，人都是会变的呀。
想你的时候，被你伤害的时候
心疼的时候，无奈的时候
烟，似乎也就自然而然了吧。
你又能真正关心我，顾及我多少呢？

11：

告诉自己
让自己离开你
告诉自己
这是最后一次哭泣
很多事情，都是有界限的
很多时候，再坚强的人都是会累的。
我不是真的傻瓜，只是曾经为你心甘情愿。
而现在，我最终还是找到一个方式，让自己退出这不公平的游戏了。

12：

很偶尔的
你会找我，联系我。
你的突然出现，还是会挑起我心里的弦。
只是，我也学会对你伪装了，不冷不热，不咸不淡。
笑得没心没肺，也不会再流那，廉价的眼泪了。
然后听你轻轻地说，你变了。
我不知道，是该笑还是该哭。
也没有意义了，不是吗。

13：

只是很突然的
看到一个相似的身影
听到一个相似的声音
总会身不由己，总会陷入回忆
不过，慢慢的，我也学着放下了
不是我变了，是我真的无能为力了，我认输了。
我折腾不动了。

14：

只是突然地
听见那些歌
突然想起你。
你会在哪里？
过得快乐或委屈？
每当听到这样的歌词，总是不由自主地想起我们。
只是，我知道，我们已经不是我们，以前要的也不是现在这种以后。

15：

那么，许久之间，再次见面。
面对这样的拥抱，我大概是不会有怎样的情动了。
即使心里翻天覆地，也会装作一副淡然的样子。
我曾经所有的炽烈，也最终，还是被你耗尽了。
怪你吗？不怪你，谁都不怪，谁也怪不了。

对不起，我不再等你了。

2011-01-01T19:09:00.000+08:00

对不起，我不再等你了
看到你闪亮的msn头像，不会再徘徊是否要say hi

对不起，我不再等你了
看到通讯簿里，你的名字，不会再犹豫是否要送去祝福的短信

对不起，我不再等你了
想起过去的点滴，我会适可而止，不会再偷偷落泪

对不起，我不再等你了
看到你的讯息，我不会再放下手边的事情，只为不要让你等太久

对不起，我不再等你了
一份需要徘徊的爱情，是不会长久的

对不起，我不再等你了
我现在才知道，回忆始终是回忆，我不会给你第二次的放弃我的机会

对不起，我不再等你了
我不会让你打扰我现在的生活

对不起，我不再等你了
即使在孤单的时候，有一个朋友在身边就够了

对不起，我不再等你了
真的，
只为我自己……

我爱过你，曾经。

2010-12-06T16:08:00.004+08:00

很好听的一首歌。

【无眠 —— 苏打绿】

今夜的月光超载太重
照着我一夜哄不成梦
每根头发都失眠

天空他究竟在思念谁
是不是都和我一样
挥不去昨日甜美的细节
才让今天又沦陷

你现在想着谁有没有和我相同的感觉
固执等着谁却惊觉已无法倒退
曾经想一起飞在自己心中盖了座花园
把你的一切都种在这个地点
却像鱼守在里面

今夜的月光超载太重
照着我一夜哄不成梦
每根头发都失眠

天空他究竟在思念谁
是不是都和我一样
挥不去昨日甜美的细节
才让今天又沦陷

你现在想着谁有没有和我相同的感觉
固执等着谁却惊觉已无法倒退
曾经想一起飞在自己心中盖了座花园
把你的一切都种在这个地点
却像鱼守在里面

不管要多少时间多少眼泪多少落空来等待
不管你是不是会回来
其实我也不明白为什么如此傻傻地期盼
你是我仅有的爱

你现在想着谁有没有和我相同的感觉
固执等着谁却惊觉已无法倒退
曾经想一起飞在自己心中盖了座花园
把你的一切都种在这个地点
像条鱼守在里面
守着幻影葬在里面
—————————————

放弃你，就当作是我最后的温柔。

-LouisJay-

Wishlist

2010-12-03T04:15:00.004+08:00

Here my wishlist:

1)New phone, aiming for N8 currently, around RM1500 is needed.
2)External harddisk.
3)New desktop with latest hardwares and crossfire (included monitor etc) - minimum RM4000 required.
4)New guitar of Yamaha.
5)Pair of new Nike sport shoes.
6)Watch of Casio or any men's type watches.
7)Nikon DSLR.

How good if I have RM10,000 now!

Then my next item in wishlist is Lamborghini Reventon Roadster.

Gonna earn myself a million in my life, I must own a Lamborghini!

Do my best!

LouisJay.

That's Why You Go Away

2010-11-20T03:20:00.004+08:00

不知道为什么，我是因为听到一首歌就会哭出来的人，大概是我软弱吧。

我没想什么，却又emo了。

今晚的emo歌是一首英文歌，That's why(you go away) - Michael Learns To Rock

真的，我也不懂为什么那感觉就是很感伤。

希望你也能听一听这首歌。

一首很好听的经典歌。

There ain't so much to say between us,
there ain't so much for you,
there ain't so much for me anymore.

-路易斯杰尔-

男生的执着

2010-11-16T02:42:00.005+08:00

今天读了一篇文章。

文章里写着男生对爱情的观念，总结来说，那是说出了我想要说却不懂得说的执着。

文章里这么写，“其实男人一旦将第一次爱全部付出后，可能就不再认真的谈爱了，心灰意冷了。”

看来，我是给说中了。

从那天起，我不再相信爱情。

爱情，并不是我想象中的完美。

爱不到自己想爱的人，那种感觉每个人都应该懂。

爱情，总会在错的时间才出现。

在决定要为了心爱的人付出全部，可惜那心爱的人却不是自己的爱人。

然而，心淡这病就是这样得来。

认认真真爱一个人是错误的选择，因为到了最后付出最多，伤得最深也是自己。

除此之外，文章里也提到“若有个男孩为你哭，他应该可以陪你走一生。”

我觉得这是很对的，如果一个男生真的真的很爱一个女生，他可以为了她而流泪。

就因为太爱太爱了，爱到自己都不知道该怎么做，所以就哭了。

因为，完美只是自己的虚构，真实的并不是你想象中的完美，事情的发生也不轮到你控制。

爱情就是那么难。

男生其实并不花心。

男生第一次的爱都是最真实，最美好的，只是在梦破碎以后就不敢相信爱情而已。

真的，如果有男生为了你哭，请不要放弃他们；就算不爱他也好，请明明白白，清清楚楚地告诉他，免得他越踩越深，最后让他无法自拔，毁了他对爱情的观念和深信。

爱情，是错中复杂的，也没有对与错。

不过无论谁都好，当你真的得到爱情时，请要认真。

因为爱情是致命的武器，也是最完美的梦。

Louis Hiroshi Jay，
路易斯杰尔。

原来，柠檬是酸的

2010-11-05T04:19:00.004+08:00

今晚我大学有举办一场活动，因为品冠有到，所以都很热闹的。

得知她有去，所以我就放弃了，我就不去了。

结果，天意啊！

竟然在我从电脑室走出来的时候就碰见了。

没关系，只是聊了一会儿。

他们走进了电脑室，而我就和朋友喝茶。

好了，大家都不同路，不用在面对着尴尬的场面。

怎么知道，他们又从电脑室里面走了出来，大概是没有位吧？

结果，他们也来喝茶，就坐不远处的桌子。

啊！怎么会这样！

看见她和他，我的心好乱，很不自然。

和朋友聊着聊着，我知道那只是在麻痹自己。

看见他们走了，他们又走进电脑室了，我看见的知识背影，他们好甜蜜，牵着走在一起。

他们应该会有个好好的未来吧？

好了，我是时候离开了，已经搞清楚了，她不属于我的。

我死心了，我会忘记她的，从今晚起。

我答应自己，我下次一定要找到一个爱我比我更爱她的女生。

只因为我害怕心碎的感觉。

-路易斯杰尔-

对不起，我爱你。

2010-10-31T16:06:00.008+08:00

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结果，我失败了

2010-10-28T15:24:00.004+08:00

我说过要下定决心的，怎么我又食言了。。。

我还是走不出来。

那个陷阱我掉得太深了。

我本来打算绝交的，因此我们以后不用再见面了。

那样一来，我就可以死心了，我就没机会去喜欢你了。

但是，我输给了自己。

我还是心软，我做不到决定了的事！

真的没有人能比自己更清楚自己。

某天，某时，当我碰着你手的时候，我真的有一股冲动想告诉你，我真的很爱你。

哪怕一次也好。

我想牵着你的手，可惜你的手却不能属于我。

我想好好珍惜你，可惜那股勇气来得迟得很。

我想一直陪着你，可惜我却又不是你要的爱。

我想说句我爱你，又可惜我害怕会伤害到你。

我们的友谊得来不易，所以我不忍心与你绝交，相信你也如此。

所以我让自己退了一步，也给之间有个距离，

因为我害怕我走错一步，再不能像现在一样。

我真的很辛苦，我也犹豫了很久。。。

到底我应该怎么做才好？

我求求你告诉我好不好？

路易斯 · 杰尔笔此。

我决定要恨你！

2010-10-26T02:21:00.002+08:00

今晚，我又做了一个决定。。。

这个嘛，秘密！

为何我会做出这样的决定？

只因为我想通了，以后的路我想好了。

我不会为谁伤心，我不会为你开心。

只要你讨厌我，我就会很高兴。

没骗你，就因为我不爱你了。

跟你说，我之前是很喜欢，很喜欢你，但是请你别自以为是。

我并不是你们想象中的专一，我就是花心的，怎么样？

我不会再傻傻地等你了，继续等下去，我的时间都浪费了。

我才不是笨蛋！

说完这些话，如果你要讨厌我就尽管讨厌吧，恨我不睬我也没关系，我不会在意。

还有我说过你伤心的时候都会陪着你，全部都是谎言！

就当作我是个大坏人吧！

今晚睡觉一定会很甜吧～

从LouisJay，至一个曾经喜欢过的一个人。

Home Alone

2010-10-16T02:39:00.003+08:00

Boring days have just started.

Mum is on the way going to Singapore.

I have to stay alone at house, ugh!

What to do?

Play computer? Read the investing books those cousin gave me? Play guitar, learn to play new songs?

Oh, no... I'm getting bored with these stuffs now.

Sleep? I'm still energetic man!

Wanna find somebody to chat, but nobody to chat with.

Even though there is someone to chat with me, what to chat?

I'm not doing well in communicating with people.

Shit... my life is ruining!

I want to study and work, only these can filled my life with meanings.

Oh yeah, I'm waiting for Monday.

Hopefully I can meet my friends when I go back to Kampar again.

I miss you all, my dear friends!

See you all sooner.

Good night, buddies.

Written by,

LouisJay.

Just Another Time, I Dreamt of You Again.

2010-10-06T02:04:00.004+08:00

What is happening, so suffering.

Awake from sleeping in the midnight.

Nothing much, I just hung out with Si Ying and Bee Kee yesterday, I mean Tuesday.

So I wake up at six in the morning, damn early huh?

Because I worried that I will overslept again.

And back at 7 evening, after fetching them home.

Ugh, tired... that's why I sleep at nine.

I feel I've been sleeping for a long time, nonetheless I dreamt of her.

I awaken, what to do now?

It's her fault, it's her fault!

Play computer a while and gonna go back and sleep again.

That's all for my report.

Written by,

LouisJay.

真无趣

2010-10-04T01:29:00.002+08:00

嗨！我今天又回来这里了！

很少有吧？两天，两天都写部落格。

没什么啦，只是实在无聊透顶了，所以才进来写写废话。

看了我的好友苹果仔健乐的部落格，虽然很久没有联络，但是他应该还记得我吧？

不错，他的部落格很漂亮。。。我不懂得去设计啦，我肯定会花很多时间在那里的。

唉，饿了啦～

今天晚餐吃得还蛮少的，因为在阿姨家吃嘛。

现在都这么晚了，没东西卖了。我想去买麦当劳吃，可以吗？

随便啦，反正一个人，都没有人会反对我吃什么的啦。

感觉上自己一个人好像比较自由，吃什么就吃什么，管他奶奶的。

好啦，我出去打包食物了。

抱歉，没你们的份。

还有，晚安！:)

路易斯 · 杰尔

让我寂寞寂寞就好

2010-10-03T02:21:00.003+08:00

虽然这次写的并不是重要的，但是我就是心情不好，让我emo emo就好了。

刚才和蔡志恒（Chee Hung），我的好兄弟去吃宵夜，芽菜鸡。

聊天聊天，很爽。。。好多东西讲～

只见他还是一样，一直按手机，按不停，写作文给一位他追着的女生。

啊～多幸福呢他！

我现在的手机，要它响一下都恐怕很难。

我喜欢的女生，也不会传信息给我了，她应该也没有这时间理我吧？

唉！怎么两次了，两次都是一样的结局？

虽说是不同对象，但为什么两次都是迟了一步？

虽说已经追求到这么明显了，却还是得不到什么？

虽说是两次了，怎么两次失败的人同样都是我？

谁可以告诉我？

算了吧。。。过去了，现在已经不痛了，想起也应该不会流泪了。

过一阵子，我应该痊愈了吧。

我放手了，祝福她会得到她想要的幸福。

对现在的我，只可以说，我曾经爱过你，但你不是我的。

至于我呢，我就会继续寻找下一个目标，多希望她是个真正的天使。

我并不是期待恋爱，

只是我不想在我快乐的时候没人跟我分享，伤心的时候没人陪我散步吹风。

这就是我想要的。

如过不懂，就不需要去懂。

没关系，我一个人也可以活下去。

我不要再被情所困了！

再见，我曾经喜欢过的女生！

等你回心的时候，我却不会再转意了！

不是我狠心，只是我已经彻底地死心了。

我祝福你，不是我成全你，只是我不想看见你伤心。

谢谢你，曾经给过我美好的回忆，也给我留下最痛苦的纪念品。

你让我懂得什么是爱情，你让我长大了，思想不再单纯。

感激你！

希望你不会看见这一篇吧。

晚安。

路易斯 · 杰尔

Back To English

2010-09-28T15:18:00.004+08:00

After I woke up...

Ouch, I can feel the pain...my tooth inside...

What is happening? Hopefully just not tooth decayed.

What to do now? Everyday stay at home, doing nothing, let the time passes like flowing of water.

Sigh, almost a week I didn't hang out with friends.

Timetable still not yet been released, but in this week or next week either.

Nooo...don't wanna wait, life without tasks, it's not life.

Getting bored with this kind of life.

Ah, luckily I still got my guitar, it accompanies me every moments I feel lonely and boring.

But problem is, I'm still not good enough in it.

Can't play a lot of songs like others, sigh.

Ugh......gaming time!

Written by,

LouisJay. (The one who is having toothaches now.)

愁

2010-09-24T09:54:00.002+08:00

大家都有试过这种感觉吗？

感觉上好烦，却不不知道自己在烦啥。

每天我都带着这种感觉过着这样的生活，可能是开学的关系吧？

大学又有新的课程了，game design，也就是游戏设计。

不过我又打算转去finance了，怎么办？两个都蛮吸引的嘛～

大家告诉我哪一科会比较好？我两个都有兴趣哦。

我说过finance拿到B以上就会读finance，结果我真的拿到个A-了。

烦啊，救命！

唉，我不想叹气，可惜又找不到方式去表达闷在心里那股气。

啊！还有，我发现了一样东西，我开始能放下了她。

希望下次再见到她的时候，我不会再心软了，也不要乱想。神明保佑保佑～

呵，还记得上次，一个人呆在湖边，一个人哭，一个人看日出，一个人傻傻地。。。

看样子，有可能我就是喜欢一个人深深就无法自拔了，给伤了才肯退缩那类型。

算了，找一个和我一样笨笨的就好了啦？哈哈哈！

最近也发现自己的体型变大了，是时候减肥了，跑步鞋却留在宿舍。

无言。。。

我要瘦一些，没女生喜欢肥仔的啦。

算了，算了，玩游戏去了。

再会，读者！

路易斯 · 杰尔

我的人生

2010-09-18T02:47:00.007+08:00

人生都是为了什么？

读书，工作，找伴侣，养活妻儿，然后等死？

不懂，好烦！

我人生最大的心愿就是要全世界的人都认识我。

虽然是这样说，但是我一个人却真的很渺小，我真的发梦也无法做到的。

不过好的开始，是正在往梦想前进一

步。

今天成绩出了，不是很理想，还没达到我的目标。。。（可能我的要求真的太高了吧？）

本来以为自己可以拿到两个A （Management 和 Finance），谁知道却拿到一个而已。

或许已经很好了，但是我还真的不满意自己的表现，对自己有点失望。

不管了，现在顺利地成为真正的大学生了。

啊～有件事，我发梦也想不到。。。我拿到一位大美女的电话！是交换的。

虽然不是很熟悉，但是她的人还蛮好聊的，可能有同样兴趣吧？

其实拿到电话号码而已，我也不懂为什么就很开心，傻的我。

也许可以用【天真】来形容我，哈？

很多开心事发生，唯一不开心就是没人来爱我，唉。。。

怎么在云顶的时候很多人双双对对，只剩我一个人？

我只是想在别人面前甜蜜一下，这样会死吗？

不要爱了，爱情那东西，别缠着我了，你弄得我好烦！

我的真心却没人看得见。你不要，算了，我收回！

它伤得我好累，晚安了。

路易斯@杰尔。

累与痛

2010-09-02T16:52:00.002+08:00

最近，为了考试，真的很累。。。

今天，考了两科又加上昨晚没睡觉，我快死了。

不过还好，我发现到原来累了就不会感觉到痛。

我的心，不会感觉痛了，而且还很慷慨。

感觉上是成全与祝福，却可能是自己已经太累了，已经没力气去理会了。

那些事对现在的我而言，已经不重要了，因为把成绩考好才重要!

其实我开始放下了你，那种感觉已经不再强烈了。。。

希望以后对你再也不会有那种特别的感觉了。

我很不容易才将注意力从你身上转移到学业上，很难得了。

我很开心，我已经度过这个难关了，打破这个障碍了。

开始学会放弃。

曾经的死心塌地，也只会出现一瞬间，错过了，就是错过了。

那懂得珍惜它的人，一定会来，却不会是你。

对不起，我只是曾经爱过你。

我好累，可能已经语无伦次了。

晚安。

【路易斯，杰尔】

回 · 忆

2010-08-30T00:57:00.002+08:00

我拥有过的回忆并不多。。。

最可惜的，这么一点点的回忆，我都抓不住。

全都抛空了，我什么都没有。

别人说，没用的东西应该把它丢掉。

这些回忆，没用了。。。

一封一封地删除掉吧，一幕一幕地忘记吧！

就当作我不曾喜欢你，也不曾为了你什么都愿意。

也许，放开也是原谅自己的一种做法。

我没有怪你，为什么你不是对的人却在对的时间出现。

我也没有怪你，既然你不是对的人却给我美好的回忆。

全部都是因为，我喜欢你。

忘记你，或许心会很痛；

不过，一直等待着你的回头一望，更是痛楚。

所以，

再见了，回忆。

致：以后的我

在2010年8月30日之前，

我曾深深地喜欢上的一个女生。

她，曾在我黑白的生命里留下一道【彩虹】。

以前的我，笔下。

A Poem For You

2010-08-21T21:24:00.003+08:00

The Love Alphabets

I'm not the right person,

Likely it's the wrong time.

Obviously you showed me,

Very little sympathy.

Everyday I'm missing you,

Yet you never know.

Only you and I had a sweet memory there,

Under the eave, you and I, had a very beautiful rainy night.

希望他是真的比我还要爱你【安静 - 周杰伦】

2010-08-18T03:41:00.005+08:00

好想好想和你在一起，你知道吗？

我很喜欢很喜欢你，你又知道吗？

每次和你在一起，我变得很安静。

不在一起的时候又有着千言万语。

见不到你的时候，心里又很难过。

好了，见到你了，却又不知所措。

我都时常骂自己，为啥我那么笨？

你知道为什么我会这样的懦弱吗？

因为你的心已有了一个你要的人。

既然他已经出现在你的生命里了，

我现在能做到的，只会是离开你。

但是，

你像我的呼吸，我就是离不开你。

没有了你，我就无法继续活下去。

我想呆在你的身边，一直保护你。

只要每天能见到你，我就满足了。

你可以笑我傻，但不可笑我痴情。

因为你，才让我知道了爱的感觉。

不过一切都太迟了，我爱得太迟。

希望他是真的比我还要爱你，我才会逼自己离开。

我会学着放弃你，是因为我太爱你。

【路易斯 · 杰尔】

给你弹首情歌

2010-08-16T03:03:00.007+08:00

嗯，我学会了吉他，学会了弹一些些的情歌。

我只想再有一次的机会，再弹一首歌给你听。

我很笨，所以我什么都学不好，希望你原谅。

我知道，我可能以后都不会有这样的机会了。

如果我的行动真的能换来你的心，我很愿意。

我愿意为你弹情歌，唱一首歌，证明我爱你。

其实我很喜欢你，所以只有你才能给我力量。

我不怎么会说话，所以才写出了心底话给你。

对不起，我就是一个很笨，很蠢，很呆的人。

路易斯，上。

只想牵着你，一起走。

2010-07-29T00:32:00.005+08:00

灰蒙蒙的夜晚里，你出现在我的脑海里，因为我一直都在单思。

寂寞奔驰着的车，速度再快我也看得见，可惜我见不到你的影。

夜晚的风特别冷，只剩我一个人在等待，等待着一个人来爱我。

这种感觉好熟悉，危险却让人迫不及待，就算要死但是也要爱。

虽然这样很自私，但我不会放弃一辈子，不会放弃一辈子爱你。

我很笨，不懂得如何开口告诉你，所以就用写的。

我已经写了【我爱你】，我真的真的很希望你会看得到。。。

你会说你也爱我吗？

Louis笔。

Another Insomnia Night

2010-07-18T03:30:00.003+08:00

Looking at the moon, she waves to me;

looking at the stars, they smile with me;

but the no one really know.

The night breeze touched my face,

the bugs are singing songs for me,

just only for me.

The sun's gonna wake up soon,

and moon will hides,

but I'm still here.

Life's busy,

time's short,

so not much time actually we have.

I should appreciate,

appreciate for everything I'm having,

but not insomnia.

I hate loneliness,

I hate insomnia too,

please stay away from me.

Wish me sweet dream, people.

Written by, LouisJay.

称得为兄弟

2010-07-15T22:07:00.003+08:00

首先，我这个人很自私，开心的事很少写在blog分享给朋友看，所以你们就整天看见我好像很emo的样子。

这里是我不开心而发泄的地方。只要把它写出来，心情就会好多了。

因为开心时没有写，所以全部都是伤心的post。

Sotong，知道你的啦，喜欢看我的emo东西。

Ying Ying，怎么叫我emo king了？我很emo咩？偶尔而已啦～

Jennifer，谢谢你的blog有link我哦，好开心～

这次，我要讲述我在金宝UTAR大学的故事。

在第一个学期，我认识了一位朋友，assignments同一组，presentations也一样。

他为人好，又重义气，还会关照身边的朋友，但是有时後会变【鸟人】而已。

这位朋友他名字叫，卢俊贤。

因为某些原因，所以他没办法留在金宝读书了。

今晚，他要离开金宝，到新加坡去了。

他去工作，也有可能半工半读。

虽然认识了三个学期，大概有一年了，突然间说要去新加坡，我真的有点舍不得的。

但对Bee Kee来说，她应该会比我们更难过。

俊贤，Bee Kee，你们两个都要加油！

虽然不舍得，但是每个人还是有自己的路要走，我只能说我们后会有期吧！

下次回来金宝，记得找我喝茶！这一次我要给钱，让我请你一次！

兄弟，一路顺风！

我们能相识，那是我们的缘分。

我会好好珍惜你这一位兄弟。

Louis-振辉，笔至此处。

今晚，我只想一个人静静的，对不起

2010-07-14T22:35:00.006+08:00

今晚，好安静，听见的虫鸣也少了。

走在路上，一个人，灯光下拖着自己的影子，沉重的步伐，听着那不固定的心跳旋律。

我做错了事，好想去道歉，但还是无补于事。

在车厢内，只剩下空调、音乐陪我聊天。

第一次，没有目标地兜了几个圈，很无奈。

不知所措，脑海里都充满了悔意。

对不起，这句话未必起得了作用，但我只想把它说出口。

现在我才知道古人有言，【宁可得罪小人，莫得罪女人。】这句话是对的。

对不起，婉翠。

我不应该把你弄哭，我好内疚。

请别再生我的气了，我会好好珍惜你这位朋友。

LouisJay 之歉意篇。

梦

2010-07-10T12:47:00.003+08:00

近来两天我人都在怡保。

没什么特别的事发生，只是两晚睡觉都发了同一个梦，而且第二天的梦是第一天的续梦。

好奇怪。。。。。。

至于我发了什么梦呢？秘密～

总而言之，是好梦就对了。

好巧哦，竟然两天都发着同一个梦，我还是第一次呢！

不过第一天的梦好像是悲伤结局，然后第二天的梦是开心结局。

怎样也好，梦不一定会成真，所有东西都顺其自然吧。

有时候，强迫也不一定会得到，等你不再想了它偏偏会回来找你的。

讨厌孤单的我也当然知道那种刺痛感，夜里的冷风像冷刀刺进心里，好痛。

灰蒙蒙的夜晚，睡意又不知躲哪去；一转身，孤单已躺在身旁。

放心吧，我的天空依旧的蓝！我相信一切都会有美好的结局！

【路易斯 · 杰尔】之笔下

Endless Wants Of Human

2010-07-08T13:35:00.003+08:00

In economics, we studied WANTS and NEEDS of human.

NEEDS is for stuffs that we must have it, like clothes, food, home, and transport.

WANTS is something that extra in our life, and it is infinity.

Teacher said.

Now I am clearly know to define these two words.

Because I'm having unlimited wants now.

Unluckily, some cases happened to me last night.

I feel wanted to cry, but comforted by some friends, and here I say, I love you all!

Last night, I don't know when, my car got banged by an anonymous motorcyclist or bicyclist.

A piece of plastic at the rear passenger side dropped off, and gone too.

Since I don't know when I got banged, so I give up to search for the piece of plastic dropped some where else around in Kampar's New Town.

I got shocked, when I realized. Oh, what the fuck? When I got banged? Some kind of responses like this.

Then after I got myself cooled down, I lock my car with alarm. *Durtt*, weird sound, so different than normally I lock.

I try to start my car and take a drive around my hostel then, let see what is the hell happening with it.

*Pakkkkkkkk~!* A very loud sparking sound out from the engine there, and the car couldn't be started. Bloody hell man, I gonna take my Finance mid term tomorrow and how the hell I attend for my test?

I called for help from Chia Yee and Ju Hong, thanks them, they helped me but still can't fix it.

I made a ton of calling in that night. Mummy, help me~ My car engine cannot be started...

Then today, Ju Hong gave me a fetch to the test since we're from the same class. Yeah, but anyways, thanks you man!

Ugh, I watched football at 2.30am and sleep at 5am, I didn't revised a thing yet!

So that's all with my test, I think most probably will get 6 or 7 marks over 10 only.

Headache, didn't do well in the test, and got worried about the car and other problems for a night.

After test, mum came to Kampar and charged the car with cousin's car together. Finally the engine is started!

I was rushing back to Ipoh, and got the car to repair.

During repairing, I was telling mummy, I wanted to buy a new car if I got the money and I want to earn a lot of money through investing in the future.

But mum seems not interested or entertained.

What's wrong man? She doesn't believe in me? I said it, I will do it!

After graduate, I will buy a car as the first thing to do.

Hopefully my working life will be a way to successful of mine in the future.

I can't let people to look down on me, curse those bastards.

Anyways, I just do well for now to prepare the future.

Study hard!

Hope I could have a nice day today after all!

Written by,

LouisJay at Ipoh, on Thursday 2pm.

手牵手，一起走

2010-07-02T02:30:00.006+08:00

我可能患上了【短暂失忆症】。

其实我也不太懂是叫什么名，我总是会想到一些东西，过几秒就忘记了。

啊～这样我会觉得更加烦！

应为又要花时间去想到底在烦什么东西。

今晚，婉翠，William，辉仔和我，四个人特地到怡保一游。

看了Toy Story 3，也吃了Mcdonald's。

好累，好累。

眼睛好累，心情好乱，脑袋好空。

我只想有个人可以陪一陪我，抓住我的手，安慰我说【一切都会好的】。

好累，希望在梦里面会有个女神牵着我的手吧！

今晚眼泪，就让它干枯在天亮前吧！

路易斯 · 杰尔之笔迹。

我只是太善良

2010-06-29T03:12:00.008+08:00

一份关心的心，原来几乎可以超出自己的想像。

但过分的关心，会不会造成不必要的问题呢？

我生平喜欢保护弱小，情愿自己受伤也不让弱小的受到伤害，这应该是【舍己为人】吧？

但我也没有那么伟大，我做到的只是小小的关心而已。

我身边多数是男生，所以我都没什么去关心他们，因为他们已经比我还要有保护自己的能力了。

女生呢，就要看看是谁了。有些，你眼睛生在头顶，你死你活该。

但是有些却对我很好，所以我呢，多多少少也有关心她们的。

其实，我能为自己的朋友流泪流血，但现实就是残酷。

怎么残酷呢？有些人，他们都是我朋友，但是我是他们的朋友吗，或是他们的道具？

有利用价值的人，通常身边都有很多这些人吧，大家都应该知道的。

有用的时候，他们自然而然会找你；当你没有利用的时候，也就是你人间蒸发的时候。

我知道，并不是每一个人都是这样的人。别人都说我人品太善良，要我学会说【不】。

但我是个容易心软的小鱼儿（双鱼座），【不】这个字真的很难从我口里说出来。

我不会拒绝自己不想做的事情，因为我不忍心，这样真的好残忍。

所以我只好自己一个人忍痛流泪。

我不是超人，所以不是每一次我都能一一帮你的忙。

我也不是大善人，所以请你利用了我，要对我好一点。

LouisJayan 笔下之字。

说了再见。

2010-06-19T02:34:00.005+08:00

The first song made me cried is Jay Chou's 说好的幸福呢.

I'm mad for a girl for few years since I was form4 but I take no actions.

Then everything ends up in April of 2009,

I confess to her, but she thought I was joking and lastly, I failed.

I cried for few weeks.

That time, when I listen to the song, I'm just another EMO guy in this world, very EMO.

Though I have recovered now, but yet the wound in the heart is still pain.

Now, I'm listening to another touching song.

Jay Chou's 说了再见, as the song you're listening in my blog.

It reminds me the memories of the first time I confess to a girl.

3.00am now, no one beside me, can I cry? Before this song ends.

I hate midnights, because I will only cry alone in the midnight.

I need not only love, but a hand which can helps me stand up after I fall down, but no one.

I can always feel loneliness is around me, I hate lonely!

So hard I tried, but I still can't defeat it.

Will everyone feels lonely in the midnight? What to do then?

I guess hugs can cure, I need hugs! But I think nobody would like to give me a bear-hug.

Song ended, it's time to rub away my tears. Life, continue.

Good night, world.

Written by,

LouisJayan ended at 3.18AM.

Just Not Emo.

2010-06-13T04:09:00.009+08:00

Sometimes,

it comes and I just can't control.

When it takes away my soul,

slowly I am not myself anymore.

What we wanted,

we just can't get it easily, I know.

I'm dying for something,

but lastly I made everyone hates me, and nothing belongs to me.

When I've been gave up,

again the chances appeared, then I got trapped for another time.

I got pissed off,

feel wanna quit the game of life.

I've been trapped for few times,

but end up I still got nothing!

I might don't know life well,

could I can learn it from now?

I want all people loves me,

and get what I want.

Happy life is the key,

emo life will pay.

Learning what is called as life,

and so I'm trying to get it.

Happy life, can I make friend with you?

I am Louis Goh Zhen Hui, nice to meet you.

History of My English Name

2010-06-05T20:21:00.004+08:00

Okay, let's talk about my name, I had some English name before but people don't know.

LouisJay, is the name normally I used to write blog, MSN, and Dota at outside.

My name is Louis, and before that I love Jay Chou so much, and I used to put Jay as my English name before during I was secondary school.

After some time, I realized it wasn't suitable for me, so I find so hard for an English name.

Finally, I found "Louis", this name was used by a Hong Kong actor, his name is Louis Koo, a cool and handsome guy, with healthy dark skin.

Louis, Louis, Louis, still can't feel the specialty, so I combine Louis and Jay this two names together, and it became LouisJay.

After a certain time, during I was studying for 2nd semester, I get to know with a girl, just because I ADMIRE, just ONLY admire, so I put one word of her name and join with my LouisJay, and it becomes LouisJaYan

I sincerely apologize to those girls who name with Yan.

So, that's all the history of my name.

Until now, I'm still using LouisJay in MSN, because I added her.

But in blog or playing games at outside, I use LouisJaYan.

Written by,

LouisJa-Yan-

姐，结婚了。

2010-05-23T03:10:00.000+08:00

姐，我不是不懂事，而是我舍不得你。

过分的舍不得令我不知所措。

我们从小就一起活到长大，我只是一时接受不到这个事实罢了。

给我一点时间，好让我能适应这个新的生活。

我就快做人家的舅舅了，但是我还是一样，吊儿郎当。

单身单身单身单身单身单身单身。。。。。。

到几时？到底要到几时我才可以不用单身？

当别人问我几时到我结婚，我好自卑呀！！！

虽然是我家姐结婚，但别人问道几时到我结婚，每一句像针一样地刺在我的心上。

无奈的我，只能低头地回答【我还没有初恋。】。

你们尽管笑吧，我不会生你们的气，因为那是我自己的失败。

只怕我做了人家的舅舅，自己却还是单身。

害怕，紧张，恐惧，无助，慌张，发抖，低落，懦弱，自卑，忧郁，全部都陪伴着我。

为什么总觉得我是最失败的那一位？

总觉得全世界的人都在嘲笑我、歧视我？

别人对我的眼光都那么陌生、那么恐怖。

为什么呢？是否【自卑】已侵蚀我的灵魂？

谁能教我不再忧郁，不再自卑，不再emo，不再乱乱想？

我只希望我可以的到我想要的，也拥有一个我心爱的女朋友，我要疼她一辈子！

LouisJaYan 笔下。

Random Access Memory

2010-05-09T02:07:00.002+08:00

I had just changed the graphic card (3D card) of my desktop, recently.

It works really amazingly. I can adjust my games graphic settings to maximum!

But the price, also cost me terribly, RM320.

My graphic card model is Sapphire ATI Radeon HD5670 with DDR5 512mb RAM.

Not bad, really good, worthy.

After all, another sucks case happened to my desktop.

The RAM spoiled, 2GB RAM and now left 1GB RAM.

I am going to buy another 2GB RAM soon, but I am headache about that.

I am headache because it will costs me another hundred plus bucks.

I have no more money to achieve it.

What can I do? Ask mummy again? I don't know. I need money so much for now!

I'm having headache of how to get money.

How I wish I could get PTPTN loan as fast as possible, so that I can get some money from there to upgrade my desktop.

I must study hard, to gain much more money in the future, I am a person who can't live with few hundred bucks in pocket.

Money $ money $ money $, please find me~

Written by the fake billionaire,
LouisJaYan.

争气

2010-04-14T02:47:00.003+08:00

别人笑我太疯癫，我笑别人看不穿。

经不起小小的波折，又如何应付大事？

小事不忍，则乱大谋。

忍忍忍，一忍再忍！

等待再等待，等待出头的那一天。那时候，是我们在笑曾经笑过我们的那些人。

越是看不起我，我越是要做到，这是我的原则，为了我自己的尊严！

在读着这的你，如果你自己什么都没有，就别随便批评别人。

我无所谓。但对我来说，我会感激你，因为我会得到你给我的“东西”，而你什么都得不到。

虽然这次你说它不美，没关系，可能你在吃醋。但我以后会在画个更美丽的它。

看着你的嘴，我相信我的努力不会输给你的那三寸舌，那瞧不起人的嘴，那欺人的口！

致：那只会踩人，但自己又什么都不会的人。

LouisJay上

The Unusual of Usuals

2010-04-12T02:54:00.018+08:00

As my hands are itchy, so I picked up a pencil and an eraser and start drawing.

Actually, I was drawing a HER.
Everything is completed, but the eyes.
I promise, I will complete the draw some day in the future.

I made a new draw, and this time I took a reference of eye and start drawing again.
This time, I can't believe my hands!
They gave my surprise, I thought it will be another failure case.

As in the process, I realized a message from this draw.
From the two Chinese words in the draw I wrote, it means The Eye of The Heart.
This told us, don't ever judge something or a person by looking at appearance, but the heart.

So I said, I don't look at you with my eyes, but with my heart.

I believe, I believe that the love with true heart only will last longer, and even forever.

So here is my drawing.
Enjoy.

Written by another LouisJay,
LouisJayan.

Happy Birthday, Louis

2010-03-03T00:24:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday, but I can't feel the happiness, and I feel wanna cry.
I'm fear about something, and I'm fear to lost something too.

Finally, today I get to know with Jessy through Jackie introduces.
But, Jackie told her everything I guess. How am I going to pass by the shop for the rest of the days?
And when I meet with her, a boy is with her, her boyfriend if I am not guessing wrong.
How I......with my out look, my wealthiness? I really cannot compare with the guy. I don't even deserved a hope.

Thanks for friends accompany me for the lonely night.
And thanks for comforting me.

认识也算是一种缘分吗？

I should calm down myself for now, try not to think too much.
Just hug the pillow and cry, then sleep well.

Good night, friends.
Good night, Louis.
Good night, someone.
Good night people.

Shy boy,
LouisJay,
GohZhenHui.

Solo Birthday

2010-03-02T01:06:00.002+08:00

Today, my birthday, also my first day to school for the third semester.
I don't know what will happens and just hoping friends will celebrate for me.

Maybe many things will gonna happen soon......

......
......
......

I'm making a wish, that I will not single anymore.
Hope that my first love will start at my 19yo.

But the problem is, I am not handsome, I am fat some more.
I don't deserve.

Anyways, I must live my life happily, and study harder and get better result for this semester.

Wish myself, happy birthday.
And just hope will meet her tomorrow.

Though today is my birthday, but I am emo enough to make me cry.
Anyways, I should sleep earlier for tomorrow morning class.

-The End-

The Birthday Owner,
LouisJay,
GohZhenHui. =)

Your Heartbeats And Mine

2010-02-26T15:38:00.002+08:00

A long long time, I have no update my blog.
I seem kinda busy and excited in life.

Recently, Chinese New Year and Valentine's day. Nothing much, I received a lot of angpao money.

Yesterday, the day of getting result. For the first semester, I failed to achieve GPA 2.0 or above. So if this second semester I failed to achieve too, I am terminated. Anyways, my hardworking doesn't disappointed me, I get GPA with 2.180. Of course, some of my best friends were get terminated, but I'm trying hard to comfort them to appeal for another semester. It's hard to lose friends who treat you with true heart.

What I like to do normally?
I get to know with girls, make more friends, and what else?
Importantly, I've made friend with the girl I like. Just through MSN.
Soon, I will make friend with her in real.

She seems to have many admirers, in fact I'm also one of them.
I don't know, I like her so much, what I can do?
Chatted in MSN and told her I will buy fruit smoothie from her after I went back to Kampar before the third semester opened.
So, let's see what will happen, and on Tuesday is my birthday.

Ah, my birthday, will have people celebrate for me? Or I just pass it alone?
Wondering...

Written by,
LouisJay,
GohZhenHui.

Happy New Year

2010-01-02T00:43:00.002+08:00

People said new year, new life.
I said new year, same life.

In 2009 I am single,
In 2010 I am still single.

Mission of the year, get the one I love!
Happy New Year 2010!

Written by,
The desperate ones, LouisJay,
GohZhenHui.

The Early Christmas

2009-12-14T13:24:00.010+08:00

There's been a long while that I never receive a Christmas present.
Last weekend, went to KL and Genting Highlands with family.
At Genting Highlands, we visited a shop and mum told me to choose 1 of the sunglasses.

*~Surprise~*

After half an hour, finally I've chosen a sunglasses which costs RM429 originally, but with the 50% discount so it costs around RM200.

Ta-ta! This is the sunglasses and the box.

I like this sunglasses so much, the design is so damn cool!
Happy day!

Written by,
LouisJay,
Goh Zhen Hui.

特别的遗憾

2009-12-09T15:28:00.002+08:00

这真的很特别，因为我也很久没有用华文写博客了。
久不用会生锈的，请注意了。

难道没有遗憾人生就不是所谓的『人生』了吗？
其实我也没有什么好感慨，只是偶尔得不到想要的东西罢了。
然而我觉得身边没有什么知己，可能是我变了吧。
全世界都在变，总觉得我好像走得比别人慢。
难怪我都爱不到自己爱的人了。

感情没有了，没关系。
在这些日子里，我尽可能把精神全放在学业里。
结果我都得到了小小的收获。
这可能是令我觉得安慰的事情了。
所以我的努力是有有用的，我还会继续努力发奋图强。

虽然说是把感情暂时给忽略，但是我还是会觉得寂寞。
该怎么说，我总觉得我还不是时候去爱一个人，但是我的心却偏偏要去爱一个人。
到了最后总是还会一个人呆在电脑前，不停地把全部伤感写进博客。
这种做法可能有些傻，但是还是挺管用的。
爱一个人但她却不属于我的，所以我会说偶尔会得不到我想要的东西。

不时看见他人在牵着手走上街头，又看看自己的双手，那感觉真的很酸。
有时还真的会酸到眼泪都掉出来。
我想念的她可能也在想念着人，但那个人却偏偏不是我。
每次看见他们，就要离他们远远的，现在也开始觉得我自己是多余的。
这世界上有68亿人口，对他们来说，可能我就是那么一个多余的人。

多余的人，
LouisJay 笔下留名。

Be Happy, Good Friend

2009-11-20T02:22:00.007+08:00

This post is specially for the good friend who sitting beside me,

Kai Yuan.

Please be happy.

I also know the feeling, twice.

First time, a girl who older than me.

Second time, a girl who taken.

And both of them treat me just like normal or good friend.

I cried for twice. But anyways, life is still go on.

Try to put your attention on other things, then slowly you will be happier.

If love someone, you should live happy first.
Once you have your happy life, then you can bring her a happy life.

Take care, my good friend.

Specially written by Louis-GohZhenHui.

Loser

2009-11-18T22:07:00.002+08:00

I do not did well in my maths test, today.

Although the test is easy, but I made some careless mistakes and those mistakes could make me fail my maths.

I have tried to study harder than before, I have tried concentrate more in studies.

But it's not enough for me to do well in test.

I cried because I am disappointed to myself.

I disappointed my mum too.

I promise I will try to do harder than this time.

No more same case will happen in the future, I swear.

Written by Goh Zhen Hui

Question Marks?

2009-11-03T02:08:00.004+08:00

Nearly a month I haven't update my blog.
This time I update my blog because something shock and new incident happened in Kampar recently.

Just last week, the bridge near Sekolah Kebangsaan Dibang collapsed and 3 kids were washed away by the water flow in Sungai Kampar. After all, the body of the 3 kids were found died. It's quite a sad case, because this is accident and they were just kids! They not yet have fun in their life!

After this case closed, another new case happened again, just yesterday!
A gang of students which studying at Kampar UTAR went to Kampar Waterfall. Kampar here rain everyday lately, and I am still wondering why they will go for a picnic. Since I was still a kid, my mum used to always told me some precautions to pay more attention, to prevent accidents happened. Although it is an accident, and no one hopes too, but I think they can prevent this from happening if they are precautious enough. Sometimes, do something just for fun, but it will makes you regret forever. I'm not persuading everyone do not go to dangerous places, but we need look at the weather, time, place, and other elements to make a decision, in chinese this is call as "天时，地利，人和". If really can't go for it, then just make it next time, don't rush since you're young. Anyways, this is an accident, and I don't mean to say they deserve it, but just take it as a lesson, so that non of us will repeat this mistake again. Although you will feel I am such an idiot to say about this, but I have to, because it needs someone to be a 'bad person' to tell the opinion. Just let me be the 'bad person'. Some of my friends cried for it, sad for it. but here is my words that in my deepest heart, don't cry for it, your tears don't worth anything now, only you can do is pray, wish them will have a better life in the heaven or their next life.

Maybe after finished writing this post, I will die, no one knows. Life is weak, but soul is weaker. Try to treasure every second you lived from now on. If you really do, you will understand what I'm going to tell next.

I have some friends that said I am not respect to the 3 UTAR victims. I am respect to them, so I must tell the friends around me, let them take it as a lesson, because I love my friends! I don't want my friends to repeat those mistakes, I don't want my friends to be the following victims! Now you may feeling that I'm a fucker that talking nonsense around, it's okay, I don't mind. I have finished tell you all about my opinion and my advise. If you think I am right, I'm appreciate it.

Good words normally are thorny.
Sorry for the victims, I may wish you all rest in peace.

Louis-GohZhenHui
3rd of November 2009.

Drama Drama Drama

2009-10-08T00:27:00.011+08:00

I've addicted to watch drama, how funny was it.
I'm watching a Hong Kong drama “有营煮妇” recently.
It's quite a nice drama.

In episode 18, there a guy saying “为什么情人节，我没有情人？我不想再过情人节。我宁愿过中秋节，端午节，就算清明去扫墓都好过情人节。” This dialogue is so damn funny.

In this drama, the actress 李司琪 and 陈法拉 are so professional, they've showed their talent, which is acting. They've done a very very good job.

This drama is about a family and their beloved. Family members should always motivate and support to each other. Face and solve every problem together. Quite a good lesson for the all level of people.

So now, I have to write what have happened today(7th of October, 2009).
4pm went to fetch Jessica after added petrol to my vehicle.
Actually was planned 5pm go to Pologround with Jessica and Wei Xin and they've confirmed with me, but after that Wei Xin told me she can't make it in a sudden. So I just with Jessica all the way. We're jogging, joking around, and even chatting about dramas too.
After all, then I fetch her to home, it's around 7.30pm.

I think I should say something here for my ending.
Jessica, you're cute with your horsetail. Ha!

8th of October, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

It's All Different

2009-10-03T02:29:00.003+08:00

Today I was so blur. Something made my heart drunk. I can't even think clearly.
I don't know when I became such evil. I have a bad habit, I like to watch and talk about pretty girls
Am I in the period of teenagers' hormones overflow?
My heart feels guiltiness, my soul falls into the deepest tide.
Other than that, I will try my best to learn, to differentiate what is 'love', 'like' and 'admire'.

Maybe, I'm not going to love someone, except my family. But I may liked or admired some girls.
Love. What is love? I don't even know the true and the real meaning of it!
So, maybe you're not the one I love, but I think I can more understanding about 'love', 'like' and 'admire' after you have appeared.
I like you, I admire you.
Thank you for letting me know about what is the difference between love and like.

Let it, 'love', comes easier.
No more desperate for love! And get a life!

3rd of October, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Meaningless

2009-09-30T05:54:00.004+08:00

From the last day of exam, 26th of September 2009, I fell sicked.
I wanna trip for my holiday, but I get my medicine everyday.
I wanna get some rest, thus it's the best.
When I was sleeping well, I get a hell.
No electricity, no air-conditioner.

Hopefully, everything will be alright soon.
Hopefully, I can sleep comfortably for once.
Hopefully, I can spend my holiday to trip with friends too.

30th of September, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Yeah, You Like It

2009-09-20T08:02:00.002+08:00

Early in the morning, I was awake in a very blur mind, I just can't open my tired eyes.
But my ears are not deaf!
Why gossip me in the early morning?
I was acting I'm sleeping there, and I heard everything you all gossip.
Feels happy right? Okay, let it goes on, I'm okay.

Human being is so scary.
Human can do whatever they feel happy.
By the way, I hate myself is human being.
Am I really not valuable for you all? But all of you is my family!
Why treat me like this? I just want to know the reason.

I got the feel that myself is getting out, getting further from this family.

20th of September, 2009,
Louis-GohZhenHui

Changes and It Rocks

2009-09-13T02:19:00.004+08:00

Finally I've changed the theme for my blog, and even songs!
My life is not desperate. Maybe I'm alone but I'll stand alone and fight!
Fight until the end, fight for honor!
Life's still go on, no one know what will happen next.

Yesterday is a HISTORY.
Tomorrow is a MYSTERY.
And today is a GIFT!

Enjoy every seconds, enjoy every breaths.

Don't feel desperate when you facing tons of problem.
After the problems, you'll find that you're stronger!

Get ROCKZ with the musics!

13th of September, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Kiss The Rain

2009-09-06T01:43:00.013+08:00

I am all alone,
Don't show me no sympathy.

My broken heart is so cold,
Please adopt it if you can.

My loveless life,
That I can share with you.

I hope I will have one chance,
Just only one chance.

To walk with you in the rain,
And give my first kiss to you.

Although it's impossible,
Can you don't destroy my dream?

No more forever,
You're the one for me in this world.

6th of September, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Heaven

2009-08-24T11:48:00.002+08:00

Where is the heaven?
I just hope I can visit heaven in dream, to meet with my grandma.

Friday, the day it hurts me deeply.
At night, 8pm grandma leave us because of stroke.
I was confusing, wondering why this will happen so fast.
Last year my grandma was still energetic.
I am sad, I cried. I can still remember the voice of grandma, the laughing of grandma.

Saturday morning, I went to grandma's funeral.
This is the last time I meet with my grandma...I will never see her again...

Sunday early in the morning 7am, I woke up.
Because I sleep at 4am so felt a bit of tiredness.
In the afternoon, we buried grandma.
Now everything is okay.
Grandma, rest in peace.
I cried.
Now I know the feeling when lost someone.

I know I can't stop everything.
But I will stop crying, and continue my life.
Grandma, I love you.
Please go on your another new life without worries.

24th of August, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Wait, I Love You

2009-08-10T12:17:00.011+08:00

When there is raining.

Ain't it's nice to walk in the rain?

In the rest of my life,

There is no one can substitute you.

Wait, I love you.

10th of August, 2009.

Louis-GohZhenHui

All About Her

2009-07-31T15:26:00.010+08:00

I Miss Her
I think I love HER unconsciously,
My heart always be there for HER.
I have nothing much to give HER other than my soul,
Secretly I showed HER my feelings.
Sacrifice myself to make HER love perfect,
He loves HER more than I do, maybe.
Everyday I'm missing HER,
Reserved the place of my heart just only for HER.

(Please notice the first alphabet of every sentence, that's the main point.)

31st of July, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

外婆 Grandmother

2009-07-10T18:32:00.003+08:00

刚从学校会来就听见妈跟我说外婆就快不行了。
很惊讶。
现在的我真的很想哭，但是妈在我面前，我只好撑住不哭，不然妈也会很伤心。
外婆要的不是那几百块。外婆要的是爱，是关心，是陪伴，但是大人们始终都不明白。
真的很伤心。我真的很舍不得外婆。
我现在才开始懂得去珍惜身边的人。
真的很恨自己，为什么我什么都做不到。
以前就会只会对朋友说节哀顺变，现在我根本办不到，我只想哭。
外婆你永远会留在我心中。外婆我答应你，我会长大成人，我会乖，我会照顾爸爸妈妈。

Just back from the school then heard mom said that grandma will go soon....
I just shocked when I hear the news.
Now, I really want to cry but mom is just beside me, I just controlling myself to not cry in front of her. Once I cry, mom will feel sad too.
Actually grandma does not want the few hundreds of ringgit but she wants is Love, Care, Accompany. But non of the adults understood it!
I'm just very sad, and I don't want grandma leave us.
Now, I only know to take care and treasuring everyone.
I hate myself, why I can do nothing, I am so useless.
Before this I always comfort my friends, but now I just can't do it on myself, I just want to cry.
Grandma, you will always stay in my memory forever. Grandma, I promise you that I will grow up, I will a good people, I will take care my parent.

10th July, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Wish

2009-07-01T09:55:00.006+08:00

I enjoy my freedom life.
I also confessed to someone I love before,
But until now I'm still all alone.
For you, I am not perfect,
For me, you are wonderful.

But now I know that I have no chance,
So here I give up,
Give up everything of you.
Last sentence for you,
Wish you happy forever.

Tear For Hero

2009-06-27T23:39:00.002+08:00

This post is specially write for Michael Jackson.
I can still remember He was my childhood hero.
I am so sad for now and tear filled my eyes, cry for my idol.
I'll support you forever, Mr. Moon Walk.

Rest in peace.
You Are Not Alone.

28th of June, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Days in Kampar + Ipoh

2009-06-13T01:34:00.018+08:00

Everyday cycle to school making me tired like shit...First blood~
Every class I feel sleepy...Double kill~
Every minute I go to toilet and have a wash of my sweaty face...Killing spree~Triple Kill~
Every time I find a chance to chat with her but I failed...Dominating~
Every minute I am sweating when I at Kampar...Mega Kill~Double Kill~
Every Lecturers are asking why do we come to UTAR...Monster Kill~Triple Kill~
Every facilities in UTAR charges money...Godlike~Triple Kill~
Every car parking slot cost you RM100 each per semester...Holyshit~Triple Kill~Owning!!
*All scourge players have left the game...

When I at UTAR's toilet, I found something funny...
Look!! The bottle of soap with the title of "Air Minuman"
Some more with the "Tesco Value Buy"
I'm speechless...

This is the photo I took when there's no teacher at the Public Speaking and Communication tutorial class.

Friday night, watch the lame and retarded movie "Blood", really will vomit BLOOD. Wasted RM9 for a sucks movie, and it makes me and Kian Teong can't stop laughing in the cinema...nearly we laugh till cannot breath and faint. We laugh when watching the movie not because the movie is funny, but the movie is too lame and retarded!
My advise, keep your money in your pocket is better.

After that, we saw another funny scene at the car park outside the Jusco.
Here the photo.

So this parking slot is reserved for SEKSI(sexy)?

13th of June, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Random

2009-06-04T16:51:00.001+08:00

University life is totally different from secondary school life.
It's time to stop hugging parent. It's time to stand up by myself.
Maybe I only can grow up in this way.
Kampar has 3 differences compared to Ipoh:
First, here has more girls.
Second, here boring.
Third, here is freaking HOTTER than Ipoh.

Funny huh? NO, it's sad news for me.
Let's change a topic.

Have you guys took my quiz in Facebook?
I feel happy because of most of my friends passed.
Especially, my friend, Audrey she got 100% but she just knows me not more than half of a year I think.
Other than that, the guardian angel of my life, I love her secretly from 3years ago, she gets 80% also, not bad!
Althought she doesn't gets 100% but 80% I'm very happy with the result.
I don't know whether she knows the last question of the quiz or not.

The last question is:
5.)How many girl(s) I love?
I)0
II)1 (This is the correct answer.)
III)2
IV)3
V)4

This question is obviously saying about I love her ONLY.
Anyway, it's not an important thing to me again because I have tried to confess to her but failed.
Addition, she is older than me 3years. How could I get her believe that I really love her.
Other than that, she had a boyfriend.
Fourth, I don't have income, I can't buy her everything.

Shame on myself that my heart is blind.

4th of June, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

HOLYshit, Triple Kill

2009-05-30T20:42:00.002+08:00

Today, I wake up at 4pm. I'm really a pig.
Then I watch Hong Kong drama - Rosy Business (巾帼袅雄), episode25, it's the final episode.
My mom also watch this drama, this drama was very nice and interesting!
After finished watching this movie, I went to my friend's bicycle shop to buy a bicycle.
Half an hour of choosing bicycle, finally I found the good and cheap one.
Tomorrow I have to go to Kampar. Monday, my school life start again.
Half year didn't pick a pen and writing, I don't whether I will still know to write ABC or not.

Suddenly, I feel so sad and guilty.
I calculate how much my parent spent their money for me.
Just few months, they spent almost RM10,000.
Although, that not my money, but I don't know why I will feel guilty to spend their money.
Dad and Mom, I promise, I will study well.

30th of May, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

HOLYshit, Double Kill

2009-05-29T02:48:00.003+08:00

Very happy, yesterday I got my new laptop.
Very sad, today my phone just spoiled.

I'm very happy with the laptop meet my requirements.
I'm very sad with the phone can't read my memory card.

Today I bought my laptop some new games.
Tomorrow I get my phone some service.

New laptop don't have any memories of mine.
Old phone stored a lot of memories of mine.

My laptop is the double price of my phone.
My phone is the half price of my laptop.

Just very unlucky, my phone spoiled.
Just unfortunately, my class has not more than 5 girls.
Just different that everything happens to me.
Just bad luck of my whole life.
Just HOLYSHIT.

29th of May, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

HOLYshit

2009-05-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

Today my goddamn streamyx line was very slow. I can't even surf a web! Hard to sign in msn messenger too! I hate streamyx! STUPID! Sucks!

Another bad news for me. Today morning, I went to school for the newbies registration.
I saw a lot of "attractive objects", I was very happy and I thought my class will at least has 10. But after I watched my class name list, DAMN it! I saw 99% was boy names! WHAT THE HELL! Darned sad.
My wish that my class will at least has 10girls is no more.
No more motivation for me to study well in a female-less class.
So, now my mom no worries that I will flirt with girls in class.

Hope there will be some girls in my class soon~
MOTIVATION MOTIVATION~

26th of May, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Problems and Troublesome

2009-05-19T00:55:00.005+08:00

Today afternoon, mom and I went to my friend's computer shop.
After an hour I keep looking for a better laptop, finally I found a laptop that suitable my requirement. Actually, I'm not looking for Acer laptops but anyway since it's specifications suitable my requirements.

It cost RM2,999 but mom agreed to get me one.
Before it's too late to change my mind, I'm looking for the other laptops, of course other cheaper.
Anyway, I couldn't found a laptop which cheaper and better than that one.
I'm worrying that I will regret.
Can someone help me?

Here the list of the laptop specifications:
-Acer Aspire 4937G-842G32MN
-Intel Core 2 Duo P8400
-2.26GHz, 3MB L2 Cache, 1066MHz FSB
-320GB SATA HDD, 2GB DDR3 1066MHz RAM (Max. 4GB)
-Intel PM45 Express Chipset Family
-Nvidia GeForce 9300M GS with up to 2,303MB
-14” HD Acer CineCrystal LED LCD
-DVD SuperMulti Double Layer Drive
-Realtek High Definition,Nvidia High Definition Audio
-56K Modem with SmartCP, Webcam, Card Reader,Bluetooth, Infrared, Fingerprint Scanner
-Intel WIFI Link 5100 a/g/n Wireless Adapter
-2.25kg / Genuine Windows Vista Home Premium
(this laptop with 1-year warranty and can be extended to 3-years warranty)

19th of May, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Family and Home

2009-05-17T02:22:00.003+08:00

1 more week to go then I have to stay in Kampar for my University life.
Ipoh, my house is the best place. I miss my house and my family wherever I go.

Actually, I got few reasons I miss my house.
First, my room got air-conditioner.
Second, my cousin told me, many accomodations in Kampar were haunted.
Third, I'm starting to hate school life again.

Saturday morning, my mom woke me up at around 9.30am.
After that, we all having 1-day trip to Kampar, actually the purpose is to pay the house rental.
Before we are going back, we went to have our lunch.
After "blah blah blah", we are going back to Ipoh around 2.30pm.

Tonight, nothing special. I still sitting in front of my computer.
But I done something I felt very guilty.
I kill a little 4-legs-snake with insecticide.
It was a little lizard but I can't really control myself to not kill it.
It ran onto the sofa! but then it ran on the wall again.
Ridsect is on my hand. *shoot*
It is starting to faint. After few seconds, it fell on the floor.
After few minutes, it loses it's energy and moveless.

Am I done something wrongly?
Hope tonight I don't get a nightmarish-dream.

17th of May, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Trip to Kuala Lumpur (2)

2009-05-13T16:40:00.016+08:00

On Friday evening, I left my friends and I follow my sister car to cousin's house.
At midnight, cousin and me went to train station to fetch my mum and cousin's mum.

Sunday morning, mum wake up me at around 10am.
We ready go to Bukit Jalil Stadium to attend the "浴佛" Buddha bathing activity.
The stadium full of people!

Our bus back to Ipoh at 5pm so we stay at cousin house after the activity till 4pm.
Before we go to Pudu bus station, cousin bought us some vegetarian pizzas.

On the way back to Ipoh, I realized time really passes so fast.
I can't stop the memories flashing back in my mind.

13th of May, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Trip to Kuala Lumpur (1)

2009-05-11T02:24:00.020+08:00

Before I went to KL, I felt a week is too long to stay at there. Now, I felt a week is too short.
Time passes so fast, but this trip letting me to enjoy the time to stay together with friends.

It's the time we walking to a restaurant which near the place we live to have their dinner.
I did not take my dinner because my sister was coming to take me to have dinner with her.

Here my sister brought me out to a nice restaurant. Unfortunately, the restaurant was closed. So we have our dinner at other where else.
Something funny happened. My sister doesn't know the way to go back her home! This was her back view when she is going to get her car and she lost in KL. She doesn't know the way but she tried to bring me to eat good stuffs.

Here we're walking to have our dinner after swimming at the evening. On the way, we're eating ice-cream. Twice I when there to buy ice-cream, twice the same cashier. The cashier was so pretty! Sweet!

Beside, I made a new friend, Wandy who also Chee Hung's friend.

Near the place there got a place to play pool.
After I play for once, I love it. But I think snooker is always better and much more cooler.

On Wednesday, my sister and her new boyfriend brought me to Sunway Pyramid.
At the time, the first time comes out from my mind was her images.
She studies at Sunway. Unluckily, she got to study for her exam, can't comes out.
Then, I asked Wen Han comes out to accompany me to walk around the shopping mall.
The shopping mall was really big! Few times of Ipoh Jusco!
Wen Han brought me to Pet shop, I saw a lot of special species of small animals.
I was really enjoy there. I don't know when I can meet with Wen Han again.
Hope we can keep this friendship forever.

Time passes so fast because it wants us to share our memorable time with friends.
Time passes too fast so we can enjoy the time we stay together.
Passed mean passed. Passed mean it's history of life.
Once we lost it, we can't grab it back.
Friends,
Keep our friendship.
It's a promise.

-To Be Continued-

11th of May, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Trip?

2009-05-03T03:39:00.002+08:00

Sunday 4.00pm bus to Kuala Lumpur with Wen Jin and Keith.
This is the first time I leave home to KL without parent.
At the early time, I confused for a period of time whether I really can leave my home without parent? Because I'm such a kid in my mom's mind.
Can I pass the week without parent but with friends?
Since KL is so dangerous, so I should put myself alert all the time.
My friends promised me to get me some activities at KL.
Hope I'll have a good time at KL with them.
Unfortunately, either morning or afternoon, they have to attend their classes so can't be with me all the time.
Luckily, my sister who is working now also staying at Subang.
She also promised me to get me some activities.

Now almost 4.00am morning.
It's time to rest.
Have a good day and wish myself a happy trip.

3rd of May, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

世界末日 Doomsday

2009-04-27T18:10:00.007+08:00

周杰伦 - 世界末日
想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头，承认自己会怕黑
我只求能借一点的时间来陪
你却连同情都不给
想哭，来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界好像只有我疲惫
无所谓，反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞
天灰灰，会不会让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑，梦违背，难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁，也许事与愿违
累不累，睡不睡，单影无人相依偎
夜越黑，梦违背，有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美

Sadness
Stop crying and be happy.
A word reminds me about you.
Desperately, I'm not the one.
Never let you sad again.
Everything I'll do for you.
Shoulder is ready for you.
Sadness belongs to me.

27th of April, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

The Last Remnant

2009-04-19T21:36:00.008+08:00

I'm playing a very interesting pc game.
It's The Last Remnant.
The game is made by Square Enix, the company of Final Fantasy.
Rush Sykes, the main character.
Lord David Nassau, the cool character.
I love every characters in the game, cause' they're very cool! goddamn!
I love it very much!
This rpg game really interesting, I can't stop playing it.
If you interested in rpg game, have a try.19th of April, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Adidas VS Nike

2009-04-16T18:10:00.005+08:00

Yesterday I bought myself a Nike brand training shoes.
Happy, right?
It cost me RM200, and the money is mine! Wang saya punya!
January I work part time earned RM600.
Now a pair shoes used me 1/3 of my money.
By the way, the worker did not serve me well!
The worker seems like very "LCLY".
Since I want to buy the shoes, just forget it.
My mom asked me to buy a new pair of shoes because I need to wear when I go to Kampar study.
Now I'm the supporter of Adidas and Nike, both.
It's funny, I got 2 pairs of shoes to wear, Adidas and Nike.
The Adidas just bought half year ago, but I think it's still new.

After I bought the shoes, then me, Kian Teong and Zi Jing went to Sushi King.
Wow, Salmon sushi, Unagi Sushi and more!
Furthermore, we saw a lot of pretty girls at there too!
But no one of them is my cup of tea.
Postscript: I'm not a pervert.

16th of April, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

End of Unlucky

2009-04-15T13:18:00.002+08:00

Finally I get back my computer.
Now I can online again! I miss my friends, I miss my blog too!
By the way, I miss my games too, hahaha.

I'll miss my home, my bed, my computer and everything in home...
Cause next month I'm going to study, I need to study to take care of myself.
The life at university might be different with the life at Sam Tet.
Sam Tet never got girls in my class but maybe I'll sit beside of a girl at university.
I'll shy, haha.
But, it's nothing to shy if beside me is an elephant!
Maybe I will kick its' ass off, kick it away from me, LOL.
Joke anyway.
Okay, this post till here, later I'm going to eat sushi with Kian Teong and Zi Jing at Jusco.
Now, I'm going to play game for a while.

15th of April, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Unlucky

2009-04-11T14:16:00.004+08:00

Few days ago, I saw a purple lightning struck in front of my house! What a joke?
After the rain stopped, I can't open my computer!
What the HELL?

The lightning struck my computer motherboard! Holyshit!
So now I playing computer right at Infinity, a cybercafe near Jusco.
Maybe few days or few weeks I can't active to online.

Don't miss me ya, guys! haha.

11th of April, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui

Peace

2009-04-08T14:37:00.018+08:00

Today I don't sleep well,
I alone at home,
Loneliness watching me,
Sadness laughing me.

I am sleepy,
Please leave me alone,
Let me sleep a while,
Just a moment is enough.

The couple of birds are noisy,
They are in love,
I closed the window,
Now I can hear the songs.

The songs are making me sad,
The lyrics are telling my feeling,
I feel my bed and pillow are comfort,
It's giving me energy.

Sleeping on the bed,
Listening to the songs,
Maybe I can try to forget,
The soul of mine.
-End-

The Love Alphabets
I'm not the right person,
Likely it's the wrong time.
Obviously you showed me,
Very little sympathy.
Everyday I'm missing you,
Yet you never know it.
Only I can feel the pain,
Until your rejection had broken my heart.

(If you're careful enough, you will know what I'm telling.
The first alphabet of every sentence.)

8th of April, 2009.
Sleepy Louis-GohZhenHui

Pureness

2009-04-08T02:37:00.013+08:00

I like to draw,
But now I can't draw a thing on the white paper,
The white of paper reminds me the word "PURENESS".
The paper seems pure because it is just itself,
Everything is nice when it is pure.
Sometimes, the paper with drawing is not that nice,
The concentration of people to the draw,
Ignored the pureness of the paper.

Maybe make up is to cover the imperfectness,
Everyone has their imperfectness,
Without imperfectness,
The world ain't that pretty,
The love doesn't looks pure.
Since imperfectness existing,
Everyone will cover them up for each other,
This is the reason why LOVE appears.

You injured my heart,
A single drop of blood dropped on the paper,
The blood soak into the paper slowly,
I can hardly see,
The pureness is no more existing,
My sight is blur,
I can see nothing.

I have chosen the wrong time,
How could I prove that I don't have the energy to lie?
Is pause means quit?
I only have a day to recall my memories.
Before I could have rest for a couple time.

7th of April, 2009.
HeartBroken Louis-GohZhenHui

So FAR......

2009-04-05T04:37:00.008+08:00

The distance undescribable,
The feel untouchable;
Our hearts never stop beating,
But my breath was just taken by you from far away,
You confiscated my love,
You made my cried without tear,
But I have never get angry of you,
Cause' we're still friends.

The word of "friend" has fixed our distance,
The word of "friend" means we are impossible to get together,
The word of "friend" is no more easy as I studied in primary school,
I'll go for Uni life soon, I hope I'll study another new meaning of the word "friend",
The time passes too fast, I couldn't remember your face clearly,
Maybe, I only can see you clearly in the dream.
Your good looks will leave in my dream without expiry date,
I could only feel your body's temperature in the dream,
But I'll never touch your face, cause' I'll only touch your heart.

I'm wishing a day, the people sit on the backseat of the bicycle is you.
I could bring you everywhere with the bicycle,
Lying on the white sand beach, looking at the night sky, hearing the sound of the ocean waves and counting the stars...1...2...3...4...5...6...7...8...9........................
-End-

Today, I went Jusco with Zi Jing, Kian Teong, Chee Hung and Wen Jin at 8.45pm. Since the movie "Fast And Furious 4" was fulled so we decided go to Infinity, a cybercafe where gathered all Dota pros. After few rounds of Dota, Kian teong and Zi Jing had to go home cause' it's too late for them(early birds)...after Chee Hung fetched them home, me, Chee Hung and Wen Jin we 3 went to have our supper. We have a long time didn't chat together like last time, so the time we talk non stop cause' we know we'll seperate for a time after I went to study, Chee Hung and Wen Jin are going back to KL by 5pm, not much time left. Chee Hung, my best friend ever, he said now he'll has a long semester, maybe can't come back to Ipoh for the next few months, I think I'll never meet with him in the next few months. Wen Jin will come back to Ipoh on 17th, so we can go out chit-chat blow water and drink tea again but you're late cause' I and Zi Jing will go to eat SUSHI on 13th-15th, there are promotion in the 3days.

My dear friends, I know you guys at Sam Tet school since Form1, I know you guys are not naughty and might be a group of book-worms. I really miss and love the life we had in Sam Tet, all of our friends stay together everyday, we play, we BUUU the headmaster during the assembly, we Aruba people together, we blow water, we chat about games together, and etc...

Study with you guys in Sam Tet may a sweet memory of my life, it worth a page to draw in the book of my life. Although I'm not really a real Sam Tet student but just changed school to Sam Tet when form1 but you guys treated me well, some more get me a nickname "Potato", am I look like a potato? I'm a HUMAN, not a vegetable, oh gosh! But anyway, without you guys call me "potato", I felt lonely, I felt there is no people care about me when I have done something wrong.

I miss the time we study hard, the time we hurry through the homework that needed to pass up soon, the time we laugh, the time we argue for a small case. Maybe these not very sweet for other people, but it's meaningful for me, cause' some friends maybe can't meet again, everyone is chasing their hope, chasing their career, chasing their life. Maybe this is our destiny, friends for a time, after the time passed, we'll never meet again.
Please cheerish, at least we're friends at one time of the history...

5th of April, 2009.
Louis-GohZhenHui